Whew! God spoke to me big time yesterday at our church’s Christmas service during the Little Drummer Boy song. However, it really started several weeks ago when we had a group out to experience the power of our horses to help them hear the voice of God.
One of the participants kept wanting to know what the horses liked so she could give that to them. Not an unreasonable request. However, the question that came to my mind was “Why don’t you feel OK offering yourself to the horses?”
It hit me yesterday when the Little Drummer Boy sang that he had no gift to bring fit for a King, God was asking me “Why don’t you feel OK offering yourself to me? Why don’t you feel that just to give yourself, your heart, is good enough?”
I really thought that I was past this. I realized I feel a lot more comfortable doing good things like helping people, encouraging others, studying my Bible, than I do REALLY being willing to surrender and be transformed. I mean, c’mon! That’s a lot of work! I might change so much that people won’t like me anymore.
But God still insists that he wants that lump of coal I call my heart.
God sees things differently. (Halleluiah!)
He knows who He created me to be and THAT’S who he sees. He knows that the lump of coal that I see is really a beautiful, sparkly diamond that will reflect His Light like no one else.
BUT- he can’t do anything with something I don’t give Him.
So, Lord, take my heart. I know the pressure to turn coal into a diamond is intense, but I’d rather be your diamond than my chunk of coal. It’s the gift you want most this Christmas.